My Dearest Heart

I have loved this earth with you so close.

Sometimes I am the people's champion, wanting the very best for them. At other times, I keep them at a protective distance.

But this heart of mine leads me to know that I am cared for, loved, and taken care of. I never lost my way, even though the road was blocked, and I had no understanding of where or what was going to happen.

My heart and I have been through heartbreaks, disappointments, and fears. All of which we overcame. Alhamdulillah.

My heart, though it may be but flesh, is the central system of knowing goodness. It helps me filter the bad blood. It cleanses, even when I didn’t understand why I felt the way I did.

It doesn’t beat for the approval of others, but for the sincerity of my own intentions, for Allah.

It knows, with a certainty that only comes from Allah, that no hardship is permanent, and every difficulty is meant for growth.

Through the pain, through the fear of losing, I’ve learned to stand tall. The brokenness I once feared became the seed for growth. I’ve learned that hurt is not there to destroy me, but to help me rebuild. Rebuilding isn’t always easy, but it is necessary. We build a better self each time, piece by piece, tear by tear.

Oh, the beauty of surrender. The moment I stopped fighting against the flow of life, the moment I stopped grasping for what wasn’t meant for me, that was the moment I found peace. My heart no longer carries the weight of things I cannot control. Instead, it carries the quiet trust in Allah’s plan.

With every passing day, I realise that I don’t need to force things to happen. I don’t need to grasp at every fleeting desire. What I need is a heart that’s grounded in faith, a heart that knows its worth, not because of what others see, but because of the strength it holds in knowing it is loved by the One who created it.

This heart, through all the trials, has learned to speak the language of the soul. It understands the beauty in silence, the power in patience, and the peace in prayer. It understands that Allah's plan is always better than anything I could have imagined. And in that understanding, I find my peace.

Alhamdulillah, I am no longer searching for validation from external sources. The validation I seek is from within, from the strength and beauty that Allah has instilled in me. When the heart is full of faith, it becomes its own source of light.

As I look ahead, I know that my heart will continue to guide me, with all its tenderness, its resilience, and its unwavering faith in Allah. Through every joy, every challenge, every lesson, it will remain steadfast. And through it all, I’ll continue to grow, to trust, and to surrender.

My heart is not just a vessel of emotions; it is a reflection of my soul, a manifestation of my belief in the goodness that exists within me, within all of us. And so, I will walk this journey with my heart as my guide, knowing that it will always lead me back to peace, back to faith, and back to Allah.

May my heart always be aligned with His will. May it always be a source of light, not just for me, but for those I encounter. And may I always remember that the greatest strength lies in surrendering to the One who knows me best. Alhamdulillah.

Zay x